the sacredness of tears day VI

tears day VI

When I first began this project I didn’t quite know where it would lead. I think I understand better now. These pictures, the white face and black tears, are a picture of how I felt. Not so much now but before. For a time there was, as C.S. Lewis describes it, “a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me”. I used to let life happen to me. I didn’t know I was my ship’s captain. I was not given a say whether my mom lived or not. I was sentenced to a life without her and, unable to alter the course of this current, I surrendered authority, decision-making, and trust. Passivity, confusion, and disbelief became my chosen instruments of navigation. When my mom died, north was lost, and life was governed by my heart’s faulty moral compass. Stormy seas.

How fortunate, how grateful I am that one much stronger than I walked the water’s surface, through the storm, to still the sea. Now I can see the sun. I’m beginning to love sailing.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
Psalm 23:2

2 thoughts on “the sacredness of tears day VI

  1. Incredible beauty. You are such a gifted writer, Raquel! I’m blessed to have read this. I’m following along with my jaw on the floor 🙂 well done. Love you!

    1. God led me to you through this blog, isn’t that incredible? Your love spans miles and miles. I follow your writing as well and your words truly sustain my heart. Love you too. Loads.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s