My darkest night was made light, He restored my sight, and I gave Him my everything.
Then the real heartache set in.
Suddenly, I could see my life much too clearly. The chains round my heart, previously undistinguishable for lack of light, were now very real and I suddenly knew the truth. I wanted to be free. Free from the hushed memory of my mother’s death, free from a fast developing drug addiction, free from my tendency to sacrifice my integrity and identity for empty semblances of love.
For me, freedom came when I decided to take flight and I was only able to take flight when I let go of the pain, guilt, and shame reinforcing the chains around my heart and soul. I’ve always been afraid to fly free yet it’s what I wanted, and still want, more than anything else.
i have no sight with which to see
Love, that you would carry me
above my deep and raging seas
where Your heart surely waits for me
I’ve only recently discovered my wings and it’s still sometimes hard to let go of both past and present hurts, disappointments, and setbacks. The difference is now I fly free, trusting He will catch me.
Dear World, I wish you wings. Fly free.
Like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them aloft.